Tuesday, November 23, 2010 ♥
i jus read your blog
so here goes...
dear youknowwhoyouare
before things got complicated
i was your friend
and i was there for you
no matter what
but tat 'no matter what' was too hard for me
to take the pressure
im a weakling and i couldnt take it
and im sorry tat you were the price i had to pay to learn
and i love you
i still do
i never disliked you or anything like tat
seriously
and thanks for the advice
but i guess im better at lying
whether it is to myself or not
you noe tat i tried before
you noe it didnt work
but this time round
things are different
thanks to you
i noe you've been through alot
im sorry im not thr for you anymore
bye
oh and btw, wishing gives me hope
though i noe its not gona happen
but it makes me feel better
if tat/this is complaining, we'r both doing it
our definition of complaining are so different
wrote this with my tears @ 10:04 PM
♥
i haven touched my homework yet
and im reading my sister's keeper again
tat jus shows how bored i am
urgh the only good thing bout holidays
is tat i can sleep all i want
but den for some who noes wat the hell reason
i jus cant fall asleep this days
i stare the ceiling for hours before i can fall asleep
and after tat i oways dream the same dream
a very weird and terrible dream
and i still rmb the day it started
it was the day we had the bbq
i woke up at 6+ cus of tat dream
urgh i hate this
im getting eye bags! :(
tomorrow's the farewell party
and urgh! still got lots of things haven settle
omg im so gona kill kimberley
she actually told maam gerksin tat im in charge
so now everybody comes finding me when they got problem
with their part of the job
urgh
my phone's been ringing like crazy
29 December 2010 is gona be my cousin's wedding!
YAY! but i'll be at camp so not sure if i can go
but still. this wedding isnt supposed to be happening
until after 4 February 2011
but den my cousin's a bit kan chiong
so. im gona have another nephew/niece in round june next year
so their getting married now instead of waiting for
my cousin's fiancées tummy to grow big :)
so round december my family members living in malaysia
gona come to singapore! yay~
its gona be so fun
their said to be staying for round a week
but not sure yet
but den by tat time
school starts. hell.
came back from cooking soup and realized i haven publish this
lols. nothing else to say oso.
BYE
wrote this with my tears @ 9:43 PM
Monday, November 22, 2010 ♥
i feel bad saying this
but seriously
after leaving you
my life got so much more peaceful
no more bitch crap or wateva shit
so maybe its for the better
since you seem to be leading a better life too
whether or not you're using someone else to lie to yourself
JenniferFong is currently free from everything tat makes her cry
awesome
when i heard bout you from them
i seriously couldnt believe
isit tat you've rly change like they said
or tat they jus tolerated you shit so much they cant tahan anymore
i dunno
and i suppose i don care either
though i really want to know
but hell
i don wanna get myself involved in anyt related to you
so wat if i regret things i did
everything's over
the past is no more...
did some stupid shyt notes on fb cus i got nothing to do lately
after finish watching playful kiss <3
and now
i can proudly say tat i know who my real friends are
i can truly say tat i don like anyone anymore
JenniferFong is finally free
she learnt her lesson
real friends?
i guess you're not one of them
cus unlike xinying <3
instead of telling me 'its okay, im your friend you can tell me and i'll still be here for you'
you bombed things on me as if i didnt know them
those things were the reason why i jus broke down tat day
and hell i do not need any1 to repeat them to me
crushes?
yeap, all crushed up.
wrote this with my tears @ 7:51 PM
Thursday, November 4, 2010 ♥
my grandfather passed away on 26 october 6.55pm
all that i share with him is a photograph taken during my cousin's wedding
and i wasnt even smiling in tat picture
he was an awesome person
i remember seeing him kill chickens
he'd be outside the house
and me and my cousins would grab a chair, sit thr and watch him
i remember when we were at the old house
with the fish tank
he would change the water in the tank
without taking the fishes out
i remember the way all the fierce looking dogs
would stand aside when he makes jus 1 sound
i remember how he always keeps a smile on his face
his birthday was just a few days later
he'd be 82 if he passed his birthday
i really miss him :/
wrote this with my tears @ 9:20 PM
