i've been crying so much
tat i've don even noe why im crying
i noe i'll get past this period of time
its jus gona be very hard for a long while to come
my heart aches to see those things
but i guess im getting used to it
it sucks not being able to do those things again
but wat can i do
its my fault
but if you guys could jus understand
...................
wats the point of saying this now?
wrote this with my tears @ 12:18 AM
my dumbness sucked the good things away like a black hole, and only left the bad memories behind
theres a hole in my heart
im dying
i want to commit suicide
i want to die and leave everything behind
i want to go to heaven
where i'll be forgiven
i knew this would happen
tats why i didnt want to tell
but i was scared
so fucking scared
things got back to the way it was before
but it feels different
i lost something
something important
im reaching out
trying to get it back
but im jus grabbing the air
their too fucking far away
to hear me say anything
hell
i don want to care anymore
:(
wrote this with my tears @ 10:43 PM
i seem to cry much more easily when im alone
and well
thrs much more or me to cry bout now
i noe those things was directed at me
and well i don noe bout tat other 1
hell i noe nothing at all
now all i wanna do is cry
cry and hav no idea why
cus this reason is fucking stupid
so fucking stupid i don even want to tell
the ppl who care
like seriously
i should stay off fb
(which is impossible)
cus its like everytime i open fb
i burst out crying
and yes. it is obvious why.
to the ppl who noe
so i hope its obvious to you too
since you're the 1 who said !@#$%^&*
since you're the 1 who noes
fucked up
wrote this with my tears @ 11:29 PM
some say it's not over till it's over
but i guess this is really over now
there's something i gotta say before i let you go
listen
when you have a fight with him
sometimes you cry and feel sad and blue
i become hopeful
my heart aches secretly
then just a hint of your smile
can make me feel fine again
to keep you from figuring out how i feel about you
cause then we would drift apart
i hold my breathe, bite my lips
please leave him and come to me
baby please don't take his hand
cause you should be my lady
i've been waiting for you for so long
please look at me now
when the music stops
you will vow to spend the rest of your life with him
how i prayed every night this day would never come
the wedding dress you're wearing
it's not me next to you
you never knew how i felt about you
and i hated you so
sometimes i wished you would be unhappy
now i have no more tears left to cry
when im by myself i talk to you like you're here
i've felt so restless every night
maybe i've known all along this would happen
i close my eyes and dream an endless dream
please leave him and come to me
baby please don't take his hand
cause you should be my lady
i've been waiting for you for so long
look at me now
when the music stops
you will vow to spend the rest of your life with him
how i prayed every night this day would never come
the wedding dress you're wearing
it's not me next to you
please be happy with him so that i can forget you
please forget how miserable i looked
it's going to be unbearably hard for me for a long while to come
for such a long time i've lived in an illusion like a fool
she is still smiling at me so brightly
the wedding dress you're wearing
wrote this with my tears @ 6:04 AM
