im such a selfish retarded person
i know you guys are jus friends
but why am i feeling sosososososo
sad. and jealous.
tat picture
i cant stop looking at it
but looking at it makes me feel even more
sad. and jealous.
you guys are jus close friends
who go out tgt all the time
tats all
i know tats all
im sure tats all
but i still feel sososo
sad. and jealous
whywhywhywhywhy?
why do i feel jealous? and sad?
cus i cant be close friends with him like she is?
cus he acts differently when im around?
i don know a thing
bout him, his life
wat he does, whr he goes, who he is
i know nothing
i guess these are jus a few reasons why
i feel so fucking sad :(
wrote this with my tears @ 5:36 AM
today sucked
science? some stupid experiment
yee yuan keep hitting me
art? some new teacher tat looks like a coffee shop auntie
tat continued wasting time talking bullshit
when we were alrdy late as usual
and caused us to not be able to finish our work
hate her already
recess? i pei-ed mana the whole recess
cus SOMEONE is up to her old tricks
jus when i thought she was getting not so bitch
stupid fucking backstabber
cry all you want, cus we know tat you're the 1 talking bullshit
and we'll be with mana no matter wat you say
cus unlike the friends tat you made turn their back against her
we're not so stupid to believe you
*no offence to the friends*
maths? usual thing
english? sucked as always
lit? well, there was mcnoe, of cus it sucked
after school.....
walked out of class whr denise was waiting
and she didnt see me, lols
pei mana go locker
den met xinying and denise they all at foyer thr
went home...
wrote this with my tears @ 5:53 AM
wats the singnation thing?
its no diff from normal days other than sitting somewhere else loh
and kui and mark finished my candy
though i said they can finish it la
but at least leave 1 for me mah! :(
history? sucked as usual
maths? *haiya*
recess? better than lessons loh
in library as always
hungry as always
gastric as always
and he wasnt there
*sigh*
science? hate science =.=
chinese? well chinese has always been nice
wats with the jerking thing between sr and kui tat erick suddenly mentioned
lols
did our files
funny little chats
lols
cf? wats the use of it anyway =.=
after school.....
i was supposed to go eat lunch with mana la
but den felt bad towards my laopo
cus i went out with mana ytd den today oso go wiv her my laopo will jealous
though she got joel
so stayed in school
and regretted it the moment xinying and denise came down
boring like siao =.=
i just stared at the air
wth...
den kept calling ppl to ask if they want buy denise's band tickets
lols
if i wasnt wrong, when i called kui, he used a disgusting girly voice
creeped me out but made me laugh big time
my hair comes into good use when im calling ppl in school :)
*hai*
all in all
my day sucked
cus i found i don mean a thing to him
i'll jus be a bad memory
nightmare
some stupid girl in his life
but i'll still like him like i did before
like he likes her
wrote this with my tears @ 6:15 AM
i always knew
i jus didnt want to admit it
after all...
there was hope
even if it wasnt real
it made me smile for tat short time
jus tat after tat
it hurts more
funny thing is tat
i told you to admit the truth
which i knew you know
and yet i myself
dont want to admit tat
its never gona happen
why do i hav to be the 1 to spell it out in your face?
why mus i be the 1 hurting you, by telling you the truth?
you hav no idea how much tat pains me
you hav no freaking damn idea
im crying not only for you
but also because of you
for myself
wrote this with my tears @ 8:20 PM
seriously
i am angry
annoyed
at the way you treat my friend
freaking bastard
at first it was your mum
then your studies
and you actually asked her to wait
do you think tat as time passed
she will stop loving you?
do you think tat some distance
would change things between you?
3 words: wait for me
a girl can wait forever after tat
and you actually found a new gf
short 1
i mean come on!
you 2 are the same height
when you sit down and she stands up!
you wanna find a new girl?
get a taller 1!!!!!
i feel like an angel compared to you.
BASTARD!
wrote this with my tears @ 5:52 AM
