when you told me something
tat has nothing to do with how you feel
wat you want
or anything close to your heart
i said i don care
when something happened
and i tried to talk to you
when i tried to help
u threw tat shit back at me
you don noe how i felt
you don noe anything
since you threw tat shit back at me
when you don understand
i'll play your game
i wouldnt give a damn bout you anymore
im jus doing wat you told me to
u said i don care
so i wont care
no matter how much it hurts me
to ignore you
to not be able to message you saying
'im bored'
boy. im drawing the line.
to save myself from anymore heartache.
believe me. it hurts.
you make me hurt so much.
i hate you.
wrote this with my tears @ 7:04 AM
i don like him.
not before, not now, not ever
its jus tat he reminds me of him
another guy
the one i actually really did like.
they treat me the same way
as a replacement for the girl they like
why do they all treat me like trash
someone they can get to come and go
whenever they want
damn
i really do hope people don get it wrong.
cus i do NOT like him.
he makes me cry
HE makes me smile.
HE is the only guy tat i like
tat did not made me cry
like crazy every single night.
the best guy i ever liked
:)
but then...
HE likes another girl
some freaking girl which he wont tell me who
i guess the pain starts, again
all over again...
wrote this with my tears @ 7:50 AM
Since i've been walking in the wrong direction
i barely recognize my own reflection
scared of love but scared of life alone
since i've been playing on the safe side lately
building walls around my heart to save me
but it's time for me to let it go
yeah im ready to feel now
no longer am i afraid i would fall down
it mus be time to move on now
without the fear of how it might end
guess im ready to love again
just when you think the love would never find you
you run away but still it's right behind you
it's jus something tat you can't control
wrote this with my tears @ 7:00 AM
Z reminds me of E.
I really don noe why.
They don look alike.
They don act alike.
E's not as 'enthu' as Z.
It took me days to figure out why
I feel like crying when I see Z
Unhappy.
Was messaging Z that night.
When I suddenly thought bout E.
And finally figured that it was cus of him.
Though I don noe why.
But, im sure.
wrote this with my tears @ 6:49 AM
house of night series book 7 burning
there's this part
tats so touching
i cried no matter how many times i read it
heath liked zoey since they were both little children
he's been wiv her since they were young
zoey's soul shattered when heath died
heath had to make a choice
let zoey go, leave her, so tat she can save the world
or stay wiv her until she finally fades.
guess the 2nd choice is easier for every1 right?
but... he did the 1st
heath left zoey
wat he said to her
ohmy i feel like crying again
the book... it said tat
heath saw through the fading zoey she was
he saw the girl she was in 4th grade
uneven self-cut bangs
he rmb the summer he left her for a family vacation
and coming back wiv her a new person
his goddess
come on people, how can you not feel touched!!!!!
his giving up the one and only girl he has ever loved
and the part when he was telling her he had to go...
i cant imagine how much it hurt, his heart..
he said tat he'll find her again
tat their love will nvr end
tat love was is and always will be the very thing tat links them.
i so love tat part of the story
everytime i think about tat part of the story
i cry, n idk why
is it cus im touched
tat i want thr to be a guy tat likes me the way heath likes zoey
which i know is impossible
ah wateva
its jus, this part is so touching
this part makes me love heath so much
crying again...
wrote this with my tears @ 5:50 AM
